Missielmay's Journals

10 things you may want to know about me

well at first I have to say that I REALLY AM NOT any interesting person so I'm sorry if it'll be boring.. ;D

Here we go!

1) Im insane!
Probably the most important thing you should know .. hands up who doesnt know it already..;D
I just love to do crazy things from making picnik on the Charles Bridge in Prague (Baarny? ;D) to screaming pervet things from balcone to some strange guys...

2)Gay population
Probably the next most important thing..lol.. Im obsessed with gay people..not in a bad way! I have so many friends who are gay and I love them! Hence the reason why I hate homophobes! I just dont get why some people hate them.. fuck off..
I also have raibow flag in my room...;]

3)drawing
As you may know I love drawing. Since i was young. I love the feeling when Im drawing. Its like: Im doing something whats only mine! My life dream is going to art college ^^ hope this dream'll come true..;]
I'm drawing almost every day.. its amazing way to relax..;]

4) chocolate
One day [if I'll be nasty rich] I want to have my own pool full of hot chocolate [not too hot :P] !
its like drug. I bet I'm not the only one who love chocolate. I think that the guy who invented chocolate had never though what revolution he will start!
especially Skittles ^^

5)Music
I dont want to write here what kind of music I like/love. It way to hard to say. I like lots of kind of music. Im crazy enough to listen to mazurka ;D
I grew up on 60's, 70's and 80's rock bands..^^ like T-rex, led zeppelin, AC/DC [yay Im going to see them in few days!], Deep purple and etc.. I also love Iron Maiden or The doors..
My music idols are Curt Cobain [I love this guy to death] or Jim Morrison.
But from newer music I love the used, madina lake, my chemical romance [one word about being emo and Im gonna virtually kick your ass!]

6)Hugh Jackman
damn I love this guy! I cant help myself but he amazing.. his movies are amazing [kate & Leopold â™¥â™¥â™¥], he even looks awesome and is crazily funny! HA

7)Jannis Joplin
She is my biggest IDOL!! ^^ not only in the way that she knew Jim Morrison and Jimmi Hendrix personally [which Im very jealous about xD] but she had an amazing voice and amazing songs! the first song I've ever heard by her was Mercedes Benz when i was a kid.. And I immediatelly fell in love with this song.. ^^
and she had an amazin style!
oh oh! and I love the cover of song Red house by Jimi Hendrix where is she singing with Jim Morrison..;]

8)Sweeney Todd
THE BEST MOVIE/MUSICAL I'VE EVER SEEN
gah, I think that the sentence is enough for me to say..;D
When I first saw it I was totally amazed..I still am. Awesome songs,actors,settings and plot. I love all movies by Tim Burton. He is genius..;]

9)Frankenstein and his monstrum
When I was reading the book by Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley I was breathless.. It was so amazingly written! the plot about crazy sciencist and his 'son' is awesome..
The best movie version of this book is probably the one from 1931 or so.. just the first movie about Dr. frankenstein..^^
Oh and I have to say that there is one thing I hate.. Its when people exchange the Dr. Frankenstein and his 'son' and then call his son Frankenstein.. thats pissing me off.. xD

10)My friends
This is the most important part of my life. My friends mean a world to me. I cant live without them. Sounds like cliche? I think it really is..^^
I have lots of friends I think.. but only a few best friends..among the best of them is my beloved baarny.. ;]
they are doing so much for me. sometimes I think I dont deserve it at all.. they are keeping me alive.. ;]
maybe these days are somehow blur because of 'tragic accident' what happened to my friend but Im still alive and still with her in my mind.. there is no way I could forget some of my friends even if they'd be on the other side of the Earth and dead..
Its good to have a friends.. ;]

soo..this is the end! wow.. I was afraid that I wont find not even 5 important things about me to tell you.. ha!

I tag: Baarny,Nikky,Iska,Adriana and Millie Ann.. ;]

My drawing tutorial (Frank Iero)

Well..haha.. I just wanted to show you how I draw..
How i start and just how it looks in progress..

Quick Info:
model: Frank Iero
Real Pic: â†“â†“â†“

Format: A3

PS: I couldnt use a scener so I had to take a pisc of this drawing by my cam..
So Im sorry If my hands were shaking and its not clear..:D

So, lets begin!:

okay..
Its funny to see how ppl start to draw.. I usually dont like starting with main lines. I usually start with eyes (Yes Im addicted with drawing eyes :D)
And sometimes everything depends on what Im using.. When Im drawing with charcoal Im trying to draw from left to right.. I dont really know why.. maybe I dont want to blur it..:D
Btw: I love drawing Hair!! especially crazy hair like Frank has! :D

then just simply finish his head ..
Well the easy part is over..:D I dontknow why but drawing heads (just portraits is much more easy to me :-/ :D)

And here we go again and lets start with body shading!! :D It was funny to me.. I almost didnt know how to do it.. So i hope i make it right..:D
*Is trying not to think about it that he looks like a reatard*

half of his body done.. okay almost..

Right now Im all black from the charcoal..:D

And this is the end!!!
It was inspirating to watch this serie of photos of one drawing from begining to the end.. I mean.. I just realized that its not too hard to me..:D

Well I like doing this.. posting drawing in progress.. Ppl can see how it looks in all time..
maybe Im gonna try it sometimes again..:))

Hope you enjoyed..:)

Btw: Im gonna post this drawing again but in better qalitty..:))

im so sorry...

just wanna say sorry to all of you.. im not home at this time.. so i wanna say sorry im not commenting your pics a lot.. and for none post by me... but for a few days iÂ´ll be home and then.. i promise.. iÂ´ll be better..:D ist hard for me... COZ I CANÂ´T LIVE WITHOUT BUZZNET!! :D:D see ya soon babes...:-*

Tagged by Anrathebadangel

12 songs that makes me happy

(hope you know that this is pretty hard question for me..:D)

sooo...

1. Vampires will never hurt you- My chemical romance

this is the first song iÂ´ve ever heard by my chem... it was in 2002..... i think it is my memorial song..:D im still happy if i heÃ¤r it coz i start remeber on times when i was young.. (I mean when i was child :D)

2. Town called Hypocrisy- Lostprophets

everytime when i hear this song i see in my mind that video where everybody from this band look like total idiot..:D

3. I dont wanna grow up- Simple Plan

Funny video....:D that my motto... coz sometimes i really dont wanna grow up.. sometimes i wanna be just like a lil brat.:D

4. I love my self today- Bif Naked

I adore this song..love the lyrics...:D

5. Im not okay- my chemical romance

One of many reasons why i love this song and why this song makes me smile is that fuckin amazing video!!!! :D i think you know i say it..:D its amazing!! :D:D

6.Umberella-Vanilla sky

this is the best cover of this song!! :D

7.Top of the world- Mandy Moore

This song remindes me my best friend... this is our common lovely song..:D no i dont listen music like that but i love the lyrics of this song..:)

8. I write sins not tragedies- Panic ! at the disco

I have no idea why...:D i just love it...:D

9. Avril Lavigne-Girlfriend

everytime when i hear that "Hey hey you you.." :D:D it makes me lol... :D:D

10.All the small things- Blink 182

when i see Tom Delong on that toilet .. lmfao.. :D:D its killinÂ´ me... :D

11.Fat lip- Sum 41

I love this song.... i love them since i was on their concert.. :D:D

12.Dance dance-Fall out boy

When i see that genteel guys.. :D:D:D

my tags --- Baarnyy,covergirl,afterparties,honeygd

its week ago...

yea..now it is week.. its mean 7 days what shes death... to tell truth it is still sooooo hard for me...okay..not only for me.. i spoke with her parents... they are destroyed!! ive never seen so sad people... but i understand... but i cant imagine hows her mom... she must be so broke.. okay...i still keep the faith... i still belive everything is gonna be okay... no... it wont be okay... but i hope i gonna stop cry early... soo..take care everyone! May..

Am i really mardy??

One pretty hard question... what the fuck are people thinking about me??

Today was soooo hard day...

I was with my friends..(this is that good part of my story)...and we were thinking of Annie....how you probably know..she died yesterday... we are still broke... we still cant belive that shes gone... we were like mesmerized.....
I knew her since i was 3 years old... we were still together.... she was my first and for long time the one friend I had... i know her from France.. but she had same life as me..she was still move from country to country... so we didnt grow up together...but we were still in connection...
Last time when i see her.. it was 3 days ago... she was at my home.. we were watching TV..we ate chocolate ice cream... just idylic moments... i had no idea thats are our last moments together... she was here on holiday...visit her grandma (and me of course)..
And now Im so TIRED!! she was so young..only 20 years!! she was on University!! and now... she lost the most important thing.. her life.. and only coz of one fuck*n drunk idiot... who drove this fatal night... i would love to kill him.. maybe im too cruel.. but he killed my best friend!!!!!!!!!! so what should i do??

And now...
One person spoke to me....
That im only mardy and sybarite kid...
He said: "she was ONLY human..everybodys going to die...."
so what the fuck i should think about him?? is he so bad..or.. am I so bad and weak??
what if that im still crying like an idiot...what if i dont wanna stop cry? what if i dont wanna stop be like kid??!!

i love you in other languages...:)

Arabia - Ana behibak.(woman to man)

Arabia - Ana behibek (man to woman)

Armenia - Yes kez sirumen

Belorussia - Ya tabe kahayu

Bulgaria - Obicham te

Catalonia - T'estimo

Croatia - Volim te

Corea - Sarang Heyo

Corsica - Ti tengu caru

Czech republic - Miluji tÄ›

Denmark - Jeg Elsker Dig

English - I love you

Eskimo - Negligevapse

Esperantem - Mi amas vin

Estonia - Ma armastan sind

Etiopia - Afgreki'

Finland - Mina rakastan sinua

France - Je t'aime, Je t'adore

Germany - Ich liebe dich

Greece - S'agapo

Hawaii - Aloha wau ia oi

Hebrew - Ani ohev et otha (woman to man)

Hebrew - Ani ohev otah (man to woman)

Holland - Ik hou van jou

Hungary - Szeretlek

Ireland - Taim i' ngra leat

Iceland - Eg elska tig

Italia - Ti amo

Japan - Aishiteru

Kampuchea - Soro lahn nhee ah

Latin - Te amo

Libanon - Bahibak

Lithuania - Es tevi miilu

Mandarins chinese - Wo ai ni

Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni

Norway - Jeg Elsker Deg

Philippines - Mahal kita

Poland - Kocham Ciebie

Portugal - Eu te amo

Rumania - Te ubesk

Russia - Ya tebya liubliu

Sioux - Techihhila

Slovakia - L`ubim ta

Slovenia - Ljubim te

Serbia - Volim te

Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo

Swedish - Jag alskar dig

Switzerlands german - Ich lieb Di

Tahiti - Ua Here Vau Ia Oe

Thaiwan - Wa ga ei li

Thailand - Chan rak khun (woman to man)

Thailand - Phom rak khun (man to woman)

Turkey - Seni Seviyorumb

Ukraine - Ya tebe kahayu

Vietnam - Anh ye^u em (man to woman)

Vietnam - Em ye^u anh (woman to man)

so...every language is amazing to know...
how many languages you know?? i mean..how many languages you can speak...

are you sinner???

avarice

envy

gluttony

sloth

vanity

wrath

so...are you sinner??

MCR show today!!!!!!!!!!

so guys i have to go...xD
coz today is MCR concert.... and i cant wait!!! xD

i wish you have an amazing day like me!!!!!!!!!!!

IM IN LONDON!!!

No..this is not first time what im here... but im so excited that im here alone!! xD
no..im not here for holiday.... im just waiting on airport... again.. xD
im going to Newark in NJ... to my uncle Paul..i didnt see him long time and im looking foward to him!! to him and my aunt and cousin!! xD

But i think im very stupid.... i think that it wasnt good idea watched all 3 series of LOST.. xD now i have lots of paranoid ideas.. xD

And im sooo bored!!! xD but i met here some really nice O_o and i think it will be funny night... xD

So... see ya guys soon!!!
Luv Ya....x)
Aiden....